Good Evening,
I am disabled I have to eventually have spinal surgery, and I have postponed surgery because my responsibilities are enormous.
I have a daughter who has a terminal Illness and has moved home with me as well as my granddaughter, I have observed my daughter and she appears to have given up; I'm careful not to upset her, my grandbaby is two years old.
Here is my reason for speaking with you, I have enormous expenses, hot water, gas, and electric, as well as rent, which I always deplete my budget for the month, and there is nothing left.
Christmas is coming and the baby needs toys, and clothes a 3T, my daughter wears boots with a hole in the back of her heel, I can't afford to buy her boots, and she needs clothes a 14 medium, and boots size 9m, she wears a jacket made of plastic, because I can't afford to buy her a wool coat, or a leather coat.
I don't want anything for myself, I just want my children to have a Happy Christmas, I cry a lot because my life is not good, and my disability prevents my hand dexterity, I can at times barely move my hands, or walk, and I won't improve until I have surgery an appointment is scheduled for 1/27/12 to see a specialist and have the spinal surgery performed, I am afraid but I can't function normally without the surgery.
And I'm concerned about my daughter, there is no cure for her illness, and I cry because her life was promised to her until this happened.
I often asked God why did he allow me and my children to suffer, because truly I have a good heart, I love everyone universally, and I have always been a good parent to my child, I'm hurting inside, because I was suppose to go first, and I worry about my condition, my daughters condition, and my grand baby, she needs us both.
I know there is a God, but why me and my family, why.
If Secret Santa's still exist, I know angels do.
Thank you.
Rose